this is my sketch pad

"definitions belong to the definer, not the defined"

"what do you want your life to look like? what do you want your life, right now, to look like? and your life next week, next month, next year, and next decade? what if you could take a pencil and a piece of paper and sketch out your life, and whatever you sketched, it would be guaranteed to be your life one day?...you can literally sketch your dreams into reality."

i'd prefer to use a keyboard and screen.

i want to do yoga every morning when i wake up. and then have a cup of tea and some fruit. i want to call my best friend and have morning devotional with her. i want to have a cork board at my door for ppl to post prayer requests on as they come in or out. i want lots of windows. i want to sleep in on saturday mornings nestled into the love of my life. i want us to be immersed in the comfort of sheets and skin and love. i want to share favorite movies and quotes and desserts. i want to adopt a dog and walk it every evening when i get home from work. i want to cook ALMOST every night. i want to enjoy what i do and thrive in my work environment. i want to inspire hope in others. i want to live in both the city and the country. i want to drink homemade lemonade often. i want to become a proficient baker...and cocktail maker. i want flower arrangements all over my house. i want to listen to jazz and the beatles. i want to be debt free. i want to be responsible. i want to be able to go to the store and not feel guilty about buying things for myself. i want to be well-read. i want a master's degree in psychology and a bachelor's degree in both spanish and counseling. i want to have my college loans paid for by some wonderful benefactor. i want to be lpc and lmft certified. i want to read the bible cover to cover every year. i want to go to graduate school and conduct some remarkably profound study on interpersonal/familial/romantic relationships. i want to be a role model. i want to be closer to my cousins, aunts, and uncles. i want to communicate with my mom. i changed my mind, i want to adopt TWO dogs. i want to be proud of myself. i want to be comfortable in my own skin. i want to write...a lot. i want to be recognized for my achievements. i want to be in a relationship that excites me, that's constant but challenging, that's passionate. i want to marry a hopeless romantic. i want to go to south america. i want to speak spanish fluently. i want to travel more than once a year. i want to have a diverse group of talented and kind friends. i want to live in a well-decorated house. i want children that i laugh with on a daily basis. i want to have family dinners every night. i want to start my own family traditions. i want a garden immediately. i want to grow my own fruit, vegetables, and herbs. i want to go back to washington. i want to camp. i want to be a humble wealth of knowledge. i want to fall so deep in love that i can't see straight. i want to be responsible. i want a car that suits me. i want to have meaningful conversations on a daily basis. i want to learn from my mistakes. i want to let go of my fears. i want to look at the stars with my kids, my husband, my friends, my acquaintances. i want a white comforter. i want an organized (but not uncomfortable) home. i want to help those in need. i want to have firm political beliefs that leave room for heart vs. head decisions. i want to collect antiques. i want to live a full life.