unreachable

what is it about those things that are just out of reach that make them exponentially appealing? if one is to acquire said thing, it would most likely lose its value. i chalk it up to evolutionary competition lol (since anthro, almost all things can be chalked up in the same manner.) if we don't attempt to attain things that are difficult for us we'll never grow. i'm afraid of reaching, grasping, and letting go. if i chase after something and get it, will i take it for granted despite all of the work it took to gain it? isn't it selfish to put this thing through the agony that accompanies being preyed upon only to treat it unkindly once i possess it? especially when i'm chasing something to requires constant nurturing and reassurance. do i have the capacity to maintain what i seek? sigh...ohhh the questions of life!

because everything seems so glamorous from far away. and even once you gain what you sought after, there's a certain excitement about the newness of the possession. all of your toys shine and function wonderfully immediately after you open them on christmas day. by february 8th, they're old news and you've got your eye on the deluxe edition of that easy bake oven. and then one day you look back and remember how excited you were when you got it and how it served its purpose despite the fact that it didn't come with the 4 additional cookie cutters. maybe in life we're constantly making new christmas lists. always craving, asking, reaching for the next best thing. and the things that are most appealing are those that we don't think will ever truly end up under our trees. we just put them on the list because despite how unnattainable they may seem, we can dream can't we? maybe i'm just dreaming.